I think of something and "poooofff", gone. I don't know where to begin because there's probably no beginning. Everything seems so plain and simple, yet the reasons behind me not writing is more complex that it is. One reason would be just me being lazy. Another reason would be not having much time to write. I've started writing, yet they always end up unpublished nor finished. The past months or so have been difficult in finding a reason to just sit and write. It feels like loosing the pen to write something on a piece of paper.
Ever loose that pen? That favorite pen that gives off the feel good grip, but never really writes well. Did it run away or did I loose it? Did someone already picked it up or is it just misplaced somewhere? I'm not sure. Sometimes I miss the grip, but not the ink. I miss just having a pen when its needed. I tried to retract my steps and found that I have forsaken the pen. Maybe abused it by just playing with it and not taking of care of it. And now it's just kind of just lost. I tried looking for it.....
It's just gone. Snap! Other pens just don't work as well as that wonderful pen that was lost. That was irriplacable. I gues life goes on writing without a pen. Its not the same as any other writing tool.
Bottom line: I have lost the inspiration and the motivation to write. I'm not really sure what's causing it.
