Happy 28h Birthday to Me

It's one day of the year that everybody recognizes you. It's one day a year people sing songs for you with happy faces. It's one day a year when you are treated extra special. Remember your 1st birthday? I don't. I remember my childhood birthdays and I usually hide under my mother's skirt or go play outside w/ my friend who has no idea that it's my birthday.

I find my own birthday irrelevant. I find my life important; however, my birthday's just another day. Jesus celebrates his birthday on Christmas, but He actually wasn't born in December. I'd celebrate my baptism which is May 20th, that's when I was born again. I am born again. I was born March 11, 1984 as one who will be of this world. Then I am saved by the grace of God on May 20th 2008. I am blessed to know that my life is in Christ.

Today was odd. In a good and bad way. My mum & brother came to church with me. That was the highlight of my day. Even though with all the stress that my family bring me, for them to see and hear the environment that calms my weeks. God is working. I know this. I am optimistic that my mum will see God differently in a christian way. Constant prayer helps. "God, I pray that my mother will see that you are the only way, the truth, and the light". This world has corrupted a lot of minds and hearts. I want you God to help my family get through all the hardships and trials with life on this earth. I would love to spend eternity in heaven w/ my family. Of course it's not my will, but God's. It's my birthday and I thank God for my birth. I thank God for a chance to live in this beautiful creation, and to be surrounded with beautiful people to live with.

My goal today is to please God and be fulfilled with His Spirit. I knew that the devil would be in the way of that. My mum decides to bring up topics and certain things on the way to church and after church that just put me in a place of distress and anger. My mood wasn't going straight, and my day hasn't been happy. Fact that my mum and my bro was at church brought joy to me, but it also brought strangeness and awkwardness. I knew that's all worldly. Because of my pride, I lead them to church, but I wasn't completely there. I forgot my friends, I forgot those who wants to celebrate my birthday, I forgot the angel that baked me cupcakes. I totally messed up. I knew it. I know what I was doing. I was being dumb. I know better. I just wanted to cry out and ask God to turn back time. What's done is done. I have failed. I am missing. I have no excuses. I have tendencies of being a jerk. I have tendencies of being dramatic. I know. I'm working on it. I'll just swallow it all.

For the rest of the day, I decided to come out of my house and be with people. I am thankful for everybody. My only wish for my birthday is for everybody to realize that God is bigger than anything and everything. I want christians to live their life obedient to Chris all day, everyday. Not just on Sunday or a day during the week when they have a bible study. I don't even want to bother with world peace. I just want the world to LOVE GOD, and that comes peace. I don't know what else to say. I'm joyful. I want what makes you happy. It's never about me, it's always about Christ. I can call the shots if necessary, but at the end of the day it's all Christ's. What is pleasing to God, and what can be pleasing to my neighbors. I just want my wants is what my neighbor wants. The idea is crazy, but it's my birthday and I ask everybody to be Christ like. It's really a happy birthday to see everybody loving one another and loving God.

Thank you! Thank you! THank you!