Frustration

Frustration- def. a feeling of disappointment or defeat at being unable to accomplish onces

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My head is on a verge of exploding due to frustration. I can't do anything about some things, but I can't give up. Life goes on. Maybe there's a way to solve things or there's an alternative to take a different route. I look at the big picture, and the painting looks dull. I sit and stare at afar with a blank face. I don't exactly know what I did, I'm doing and I'll be doing. I get confused by things, but it's not suppose to be that complicated. I get frustrated with people, with circumstances, with life and sometimes I'll admit that I get frustrated with God.

Jesus got frustrated with his disciples once. In Matthew 16:8-12 when Jesus warned his disciples about those Pharisees and Sadducees. However, Jesus was patient and was more involve on helping them grow. Jesus wanted to show his disciples that he's the only way and that they need to put their trust on the Lord.

Now I have faith. It's actually on fire right now. It's the small things in life where sometimes I forget that everything is in God's will. I get too busy with life that I try to make it my plans and my time. It's actually not. I trust God's will for me and I am hungry to learn so much more about him and this ways.

I get frustrated when there's a task that has to be done, and I can't do anything about it. It's that feeling of not being able to help or not being able to get what I want. Pslam 131 reminds me that there are greater matters that I have no control of. I just have to be patient and know that God has something better in store for me.

I just gotta trust and depend on the Lord. Pray that I can have more patience and understanding. It can be done. Just gotta have faith and hope. It's ok. Things happen for a reason. There's a lot more to learn and study. I'm looking forward to engaging into more in depth research and study of why I feel what I feel. I already know that I'm weird. Then why is that? I'm special in so many different levels. Everyone is special and unique. It's great.