Birthdays...

Oh yay, it's my birthday. It happens once a year. It's been happening for 25 years now. It's nice to celebrate life, it's just that i don't really want to feel any special at all. Selfish am I? No, I don't really care for what others feel about my birthday. I grew up having lavished parties and crazy celebrations. I get older and I'm excited to just grow older just like everybody else. Do I need to announce it to the world? I don't see the reason why, unless they ask. Do I keep it as a secret? Guilty, I am. I never think of me as important anyways. I am weird, I guess. Sure, I do certain things on my birthday. Like maybe dress nice, or give myself a nice treat. I think I'm special, but for other to think that I am special. Skepticism comes to me. It's just that, people are so nice to the birthday celebrant. What happens if it's not their birthday? Does it have to be always that it's someones birthday when they have to be treated special. Why can't we treat each other special everyday of the year. It's the day when I was born. Hurray! What happens tomorrow? I get recognized because it's my birthday? I thank those who remembers or finds out it is my birthday. Forgive me if I don't remember yours. I don't think I deserve a party right now. I don't feel accomplished. I'm not a failure,  I just have such a high standard on life. Remember when you had that 5 year goal five years ago. And now what? Sometimes things don't go your way. I've had a good layout of how I want to live my life. I went from plan A to probably plan K. No regrets, at least my plan goes all the way thru plan W. I know I have some pride issues. There we go. It's a work on progress. I'm a work on progress. 

I think me being saved and in the arms of the Father is the best thing that's ever happened to me. I'd rather celebrate the day of my true baptism, May 4th of last year. I think that needs more of a recognition rather than my real birth. 

Anyways, I love my birthday. I love getting older. I'm not hiding. I prefer nothing. All I want for my birthday is for everyone to love each other and smile. It's not that complicated. It's not that hard, at least for a day. I want people smiling. Happy! Joy! If there's anyone who would be giving me presents, I don't need anything. Just support a nonprofit and be proactive feed the hungry and maybe save the lonely. Thanks! Happy Birthday to ME!!!!