Here's September

Pray, pray, pray.... It is so important. I learned that I can just know so much about God, but not really know who God is. It's like if I researched and studied Kobe Bryant to his favorite ice cream, but not actually met up with him and spent time with him. Then I don't really know him, "know him". What's the point of me being productive and efficient at doing things if I'm not really taking my time to just have a relationship with God. I could read all the books scholars write, and listen to all the sermons day and night. Prayer just bakes all that in and makes a delicious baked good out of it.

I have been putting off this site just because of the fact that I don't really have a clear state of mind or even focus to sit in front of a computer and type out my thoughts. It has been sporadic. So everything goes to a small note pad by my desk or by the table. Also the time restraint was also a reason why I haven't been writing. And let's not forget procrastination and just being plain old lazy. Sometimes, I'd rather talk it out or write it out or just plainly think of it and forget about it later... I've been away a lot, and just not having the time to sit and write on this at the end of my days for the past month or so. Most of my last few entries has been short and perhaps boring. It's okay.

Change is good. It's not about what I like or what not anymore. It's what is right and where my heart is drawn towards too mostly. It's too early to state what would happen, but it involves a major change in my life. It will be a challenge, and I've been praying about it for a while now and I think I'm slowly coming into a conclusion and a more concrete plan. I just need to straighten out some fact and make appointments and make these decisions easier said than done. I'm somewhat anxious and scared. However, I kind of just gave it all up with an effort on doing something about it rather than just giving it up and not doing anything about it. With the power of the word of God, prayer and wisdom from others, I will be okay...