Puzzle

Perhaps not in the best mood to write, but I have no else to talk too. Therefore, I say "hello" to this blog. It's late. It's Friday. Or maybe by the time this entry gets done it's going to be Saturday. I could just be mumbling on this blog. I don't know. I almost shaved my head today. Just didn't have any clippers with me. I feel better now after talking to a friend about Jesus, Satan, and people. Always good to go in depth w/ people who knows a thing or two on how to praise Jesus in their daily lives.

There really isn't going to be any sense of creative writing going on for this entry. I'll say it as it is. I was sad earlier and now I'm just numb. A good worship session that wowed a lot of the students. Guest speakers that came to town to greet us with their presence always puts a good word to us. It's always refining & refreshing to go through that feeling of a great worship and sermon. It always blows my mind how God works.

Empathy, never really thought it would turn against me. To feel someone's feelings can be exhausting. It's a struggle to see someone who's feeling unease. I find myself being lost within myself that I can't have joy because someone is stress, frustrated, or unhappy. I can't be happy unless they're happy. All I want is for everybody to be happy. Lessons that I need to learn. Things that I need to be praying more. Rather than letting the devil insert negative feelings and emotions inside of me. Which leads to pride, which leads to sin. Which leads to not loving thy neighbor and causing them to perhaps not love me back.

The puzzle board's huge, and there are some missing pieces to my puzzle. It's not a hard puzzle to solve, but it's a tricky one. I finally got home after a fun, long, interesting, happy, extraneous, evening. I'm boggled. I could repeat the reasons why, but it's no worth it. Time will heal, and prayers help. God's in control, not me. I have a heart to make those who know Christ be in their happy place. And if it's not working out then I get grumpy.

I woke up on the wrong side of the couch this afternoon from my nap. And just wasn't in the mood for any troubles or stress. And guess what had to happen. Phone calls from work that aren't time sensitive. It's like a blessing, but also a curse. Come to think of it, I wasn't filled w/ the Holy Spirit during those times. It is my fault. My mistake for letting things get in my head. I acted immaturely that my company is affected by it. I basically am just getting the wrong pieces to this puzzle. And it is frustrating trying to figure out a puzzle w/ the wrong pieces.

The night has been long. I'm tired and ready for bed. Thanking God for my dog for keeping me company on this long and cold night.