Thanksgiving & YOUTH CONVENTION 2011

Thanksgiving! So good! Love is known to live during these times. The joy of having a feast comes to everyone, even to those who doesn't have a lot. I feel really blessed for knowing that my Father in heaven provides. I wrote an entry prior to this that's been opted out. I'm always boggled and curious of what could, should, would happen. I commit to my words & actions. Firm in my decisions, yet I get complicated. My thanksgiving was good. Happy to be able to part take in my family's thanksgiving lunch at my mom's. Her whole family was there; therefore, it was awkward. As much as I love awkward moments, there's something about my own family that just doesn't tune well with me. I love them all. I'm slowly getting better at dealing with them. Thanksgiving is one of those times when you thank God for family, even the weird ones. There just seems to be no face of reality within my family. Where everything has to be put under the carpet when everyone's around. Pretend that everybody likes and cares for each other. I want realness, authenticity, and unconditional love. Thanksgiving seems to make everything gravy. I don't mind it. I don't care much about what it means. But what I care about is that everybody's happy, everybody's got food in their belly, everybody's thanking everybody. Can this be a monthly thing? Can we be reminded that there's people around us that don't get a warm meal and a bed every night? Thanksgiving is an American tradition, thanksgiving should be a daily living tradition. Take away the turkey, the pies, the cranberry, and all that jazz. Let's have a meal w/ at least someone a day and give thanks.

Thanksgiving. It has been real. Grateful to be surrounded with families that I can look up to and be a good role model to my dream family. There's always a sense of loneliness during the holiday season for my part. This past thanksgiving was great, but I tend to shoot myself in the head and bring in complication and misunderstanding. Dwelling on it wouldn't be worth it. I have a problem with over caring and over thinking. To which, I would do it too much that it doesn't help me nor anybody. I look silly, and helpless. I've been boggled lately. Its okay. I was living a life that was honoring myself, rather than a life that's honoring God. I'll just let Him drive my car.

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YOUTH CONVENTION 2011

Did I say Youth?! Yeppp! San Diego CA! We were there, and back again. Theme was "I AM". Oh hello... That's what my small group's been going through from the beginning of this semester. It was definitely flattering that about 3 thousand kids came this weekend and learned and discovered who they are in Christ. Memories were made, lives were changed, and God is constantly molding us to become the best for Him. I am so proud for our students who gave their lives to Christ and rededicated their lives to live accordingly to God's word. There's so much more thoughts about this. There may be another entry in regards to Youth Convention.

Exhaustion always gets me. Another long week ahead. Christmas shopping is pretty much done. I feel good. I feel refresh. I'm excited for what's ahead. Thankful for everything! There's a lot to look forward to and there's a lot to finish and start. Change is good. It may not easy, but it makes me a better person. "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." -Gal 6:9. I can't wait for the next chapter of my life. My family & friends don't dictate the direction of my life, Jesus does.