New Month, New Attitude

New Month! New Attitude!

Oh man... November was rough... Why does it seem like every November seems to be the coldest, darkest month of the year? Well lads, November's done. Time to decorate the house, warm up some tea, and bust out the Santa's and the deers. Everyday this month will be a celebration. Even after Christmas. I will be celebrating each day with prayer, devotions, greetings, deeds, and love. I'm done complicating things anymore. It's just going to be how it's going to be. And, if things don't go my way, then I'll go the other way. I'll just bounce around like a volleyball. There will be no more mourning and frustrations. I'm better than the sad stories and the pathetic thinking that I'm not good enough. I'm just going to own my faith, my being, my passion, and my likes. I like you... fine you don't like me. Too bad... I like this... I'll work hard to get it... oh well... I like that... I'll plan to aim it.... try again... Things of this world really consumed my life last month. My faultiness got a hold of me last month. I tried to learn and continue living from it. I'm always going to strive to be a better person.

Thanksgiving has passed, and Christmas is up next. I know I have a problem with these holidays which involve families and what not, I'm just going to have to deal with it and welcome it as it goes. It's not threatening to deal with people that you may not enjoy. It's okay. I need to learn to want to love them. They're people too. Suck it up and have a good attitude about it . Jesus is going to be born. Let's have a fiesta! It's time to sip some cider, eat cookies, and listen to some soothing Christmas music. Even if I end up being alone for Christmas & NYE. I will be okay. I have Iggy, and the Holy Spirit to chill with. Invitations will come along, I'll be praying about it and wisely pick my options. I am thankful for options. Everyday we have options. Everyday we make decisions and pick choices. Like I choose to write. Or I decided to watch tv over reading the unknown factor changes of structure of the nucleus may drive the differentiation of the cell. I choose to not not eat my french fries is a decision. I choose to take this route instead of the other. This month's going to be filled with surprises.

I'm even considering dating new frens this month. That is even an option. I'm done being closed off and busy. I will make time well spent with a lovely lady. I'm going to be better with making appointments and time management. And it's Christmas time, how can it be so hard to meet new people and say "hello". I thought I was talking to someone in the past months. Well perhaps I may be mistaken. That person seemed to be indifferent. Therefore, I shouldn't continue making that relationship work into something that is too complex for either of us. It became a one way street. And I'm always kept hanging. I'm not quite sure how long I should keep my hopes up. It's a real test of patience. I kept myself busy enough to not be drawn too much about it. It's okay. If you really like someone, then you'd make some sort of an effort to bring yourself closer to the other. I am trying really hard, and I tried ... she was perplexed and dissatisfied. I may have caused it. I am very sad to say that it's withering. It's a new month and I'm open for business. Everything's squared away. I love God, God loves me. I'm sure He's got something planned for me in terms of a woman. I'm going to continue growing as a man, and as a brother to all. Nothing sexier than a man of God who's on a mission to proclaim the gospel and be able to take on worldly things.

Back from the beginnings. Last month of the year! Let's do this baby!!! I will treasure every weekend, even though I might be working Saturdays. It's going to be a month full of activities and festivities. I'm excited to see what's ahead! I really don't want to deal of what happened in the past. I was vulnerable and weak. I feel strong and majestic even when things aren't going my way career wise. My identity is not with what I do everyday. It's how I deal with it everyday. I'm a grown man with some wisdom to discern what seems to be the best. And if not, then I will keep all the learnings and move on with life. It's not that complicated. Mine's not shallow either. It could be boring in some people's eyes, but I'm very content and semi-happy on how I live my life. I don't need to party, or to force myself to be cool. I'm just going to rock out with my tunes and get busy working on projects at work, home, and self. December is going to be nice to me. I have a feeling it's going to be a good one. Word's out, I'm out.

I am thankful for everything that this year have blessed me with. I am grateful for all the people that came into my life. I can't wait for my creative and vibrant side to shine even more this month. Oh my lanta! So many good times ahead. First I was overwhelmed, but then I'm just happy to be in a place where I know that there's always something to do. Boredom never comes to me because the simple things in life is what gets me hustling and flowing. I don't need no fancy things or a cool reputation. I'm just me. John Ram! Take me or leave me. I felt like I was left alone in the phew a lot last month. Maybe I brought that to myself, but that's that. I'm sick and tired of hearing people blaming each other. I'm going to attempt on worshiping God consistently daily and not let the devil get inside my head. I will be full of love, faith, hope, and the sense of reality that I am God's child. Therefore, I am suave. I don't need to look cool or kept well in front of people, or social media, or wherever. This is who I am. I love God, I love people.

I pray that this month will blossom to something beautiful. Amen!