Lament

     I don't feel very well. I tend to be a critic and I tend to be negative. I fix my eyes on Christ. I see nothing else, but Him. I find my hope, my peace, my healing all through Him. When I look into this world I question good just like I question evil. It's not a good attitude, I know. God is the only thing that makes everything in this world happen; good or bad. My character is built on solid rock. I challenge myself daily to become the best "me" possible. The craving has gone beyond understanding of why I live my life totally surrendering to the one who gave His life for me. I pray that I can be in the presence of the spirit as much as possible. Be weird.

    The past months and the past weeks haven't been so easy. It's okay. I embrace the stress, the challenge, and the trials. I pray. I continue to live graciously in the grace that was given to me. Thankful for the things that I have. Would I want more? Off course. I definitely want more. I want to grow. I want to live shining brightly. However, it's not easy. I desire life, but to gain one is to lose one. I want more to this life that we have now. By His great love I am alive.