National Prayer Day

My prayer,

      God.... I need you! I want you! You are LOVE, I love you! Oh man... I haven't been having an amazing week. I don't need an amazing week, I realize that I have You. I don't need a response from the girl that I like. I have You. I don't need parents checking on their son. I have you as my father in heaven. I don't need to get caught up about making enough to provide for my future family. I know that You will provide. Thank you! You have blessed me with your Grace. You've been so patient with me and have been so forgiving for the sins that I have committed. I don't want to disappoint you anymore. I want to live for you and according to your will. Let my wants and needs be you. Let me wake up in the morning praying to you and not wondering what my to-do list looks like or what I'm wearing. I want to love and appreciate You and all that you have created. I want to work for your kingdom. Even in the science field. You made all things! Even in relationships. They are your sons and daughters. I ask that you take this fear away from me. I want to put on this armor and fight this battle with you as my sword and shield. I want to impress You, Lord GOD, and not the people around me, or the girl that I adore. Give me the courage to follow my words and take them into action. Actions that's glorifying you and be to the best of my abilities. You know my strengths and weaknesses. Fill my lack of effort with your love. Reduce my love for myself, and convert that to my love for you. Let my selfishness be for You and my brothers & sisters. You are just, God. And You take care of all those who are in need of You. You know my prayers more than anyone else. I love you Lord. I am your servant forever. I don't deserve this life, but you gave this to me to enjoy the wonders of your creation and to serve you. Let my focus be You. I want to be reminded daily that you're more important than my life. Your spirit lives in me and with me. I want my thoughts to be for your glory. I want my thoughts and wants for the better of your kingdom. I want you, Jesus!!! I love you! The power and will of me loving you is You. You gave me all these gifts and talents. I'm sorry if I haven't been able to maximize them for You. I feel  empty right now. I feel alone. God, I ask that you fill my cup. God, ask that you speak to me. God, I ask that you show me the way in which you want me to go. The joy is fading. I want to delight in You,  in times of being in judged, being rejected, being poor, being sick, being a failure, and being a sinner. I need you badly. Oh man... You have the power to move mountains and raise people from the dead. Change my heart. Thank you for worship that makes me cry all the time. Thank you for making me cry. Thank for my heart hurting. I just want to be in your presence God. There's so much going on in this world. I'm overwhelmed by the world. I don't want that. I just want you, God. You're more important than making a living, relationships, my status, my identity, my health, my legacy. You have to be incorporated to all of that. I must confess that lately, you haven't been. And now I'm broken and in tears begging you to come back in my life. I want you back, and I know that you never left. I won't make any excuses. I admit to my mistakes and the lack of actions. I want to change for the best. God, you are the best. Everything else is temporary. Let You be with me on this world. I know that I can't do this all on my own. I can't go to work alone, I can't eat alone, I can't date alone, I can't serve alone, I can't be alone. I know you're with me everywhere I go. And lately I've been pushing you away and having things my way. I don't want to use your name to get the things that I want. I want to use your name to get what you want and to glorify you more to the nth degree. I love you Lord. My prayer is to be in constant prayer. My constant prayer is to be lifting you higher. You're beautiful.

Amen.