A simple greeting that I bring to you, Papa. As much as I miss you, I feel very blessed to have you as my Papa. Even though you aren't around for the past 10 years or so, your DNA still runs through my body. We just spoke to each other not so long ago via "yahoo" chat, and it felt like a rigatori going through my esophagus. Time doesn't hit me as much as it did a years ago. You know what I'm dealing with now, and though my trust in you is a little less than a sweetened iced tea it's still good to hear from you. To just know that you're still alive and present. We all have our struggles, and I'm joyful that you are semi-doing well. I know how ambitious we are in life. I runs in the family. I love how you talked about having faith and staying strong and being hopeful. I appreciate every blessing that you give me. I just always wish that you're a phone call away or a short flight away.
We were chatting for a good solid hour. Three quarters of it was about business and I am worried and scared Papa. I feel like I am following you and "Daddy's" (grandpa), footsteps in terms of work. I remember you starting up this semi conductor company. I remember Daddy's corporation. And now another Ram in me is starting this aerobio-lab. You're so proud, but you're not here to see it. I sent you the scope of the the lab and I appreciate the advice and the recommendations. I haven't talked to you in years and here you are again giving me a lecture about business. Being there was enough for me.
Happy Father's day to you Papa. I hope your family would recognize how amazing of a father are you to them. All I do now is reminisce the good times we've had. You've given me an offer to go back to you. I am actually considering it. I told you the plan. I told you my desire to serve God and not this world. Thank you for giving me that security of having you behind me and the support that you give me on to whatever journey I take. I'll pray about it and there is a possibility that I may see Nana (grama) by the end of this year or even earlier. And like I told you, I don't want to settle with you. I will seek to explore what's out there and be open to sufferings and celebrations. It all depends if the science of what I'm doing goes booming or falls down. I know that you have faith in me because I'm your awesome son. Sometimes I just want to buy a one way ticket to random country and figure things out from there. Leave them all the money with no strings attached. You know that I am capable of disappearing like a monkey in the jungle. I remember that time when you lost me in the rapids in Bali and I flipped and almost got knock out by a coconut. That I enjoyed drinking and eating that afternoon. Oh the fun times we had.
I'm sorry if I've been a rude son by not keeping in touch for the past year. I will be more consistent by writing to you. As the time of meeting is becoming more of a possibility. Thanks for the encouragement, the affirmation, and the blessings. I wish you well. Take care and God Bless!
Sincerely, ME
ps. if i write to my father right now, this is how it'll be like. but i wish him a happy birthday in spirit and perhaps a little short message saying "happy father's day". i know that i can do something about it, and i am.
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