My heart hurts. Ever felt so far from what you want, yet its right there? You see it. You hear it... but I'll never make there. It's either moving away as I get close or moving aways even if I'm not trying. It teases you like it's there, but is it? I'm not sure. The sound gets louder. The view is clearer and wider. However, there's nothing there. The more you try and listen and talk, the more my heart hurts. Even though my senses feels good with it, my inside's all turning around. It wants to leave and not continue. I feel like a burned scrabble eggs.

I don't get it? Where is this going? Everything is suppose to have a reason and a purpose. I can't decipher the fact. There's a vision, but no hope. Fail. I'll pray about it. I'm sure I'll be okay. I'm not worried. But for now. I feel like pretty awful. Blah.........................................