Bittersweet

I'd be lying to you if I tell you that I'm good or tell you that I'm miserable. I'm okay. The bad could only get worse and the good can always get better. God knows the best, and God knows the worst. He died for my sins and everyone else's. There's always grace, so why be down and out. Sadness can sink in. Frustrations, irritations, depressions have pills for it, but it can't consume lives because there's more beauty to life than being always dark and negative. People have an idea of what's best or what's worst.

I always learn a lesson everyday. I end my days writing something on my notebook even if it's one word. The word for the past month or so has been "bittersweet". God likes to surprise me with something worth celebrating, then adds a twist to it. It's okay. Focus on the sweet part and just leave the bitter part later. I think it just has to blend. Solution: make adjustments and be faithful and not prideful. It's not something for people to give me sad faces and tell me that, that sucks. I'm happy for whatever makes people happy, as long as it's justifiably moral. Even if the situation could cause broken hearts. I couldn't really do much, but to live fruitfully. However, if I am not then something's up. Question is am I? It's mutual. I always want to challenge myself. But am I doing it in a smart way?

I've taken the strength finder's test and tested out to be in a more impacting and relating to people. Never did I have anything on the striving, or thinking part. I'm just big on influencing and helping people. I'd give someone a kidney if someone asks me for it. If I like you, you don't even have to ask me. I'll just offer it you.

Ever seen those movies where a sacrifice has to be made for the good of all? Yes. When someone has to stay or go and die, so that he/she could save a planet, a ship, a city, a person, etc. Every story has an end. Life ends at some point. Anything has a beginning and an end. But there are certain things that are everlasting. The memory lanes aren't going anywhere, history will remain history, and love never ends.

I remain quiet. It's bittersweet. Blood's pumping through my body and I'm just staring at the wonderful blue sky trying to make shapes out of the clouds. Sometimes I laugh about things, sometimes I just become a bum about things. It's okay! I'll keep dreaming good dreams and fight the bad dreams. Even though I wake up very early for no reason and being very exhausted for sleeping late.

There's a lot of work that needs to be done. I shall remain "asleep" and wait until God wakes me up for that right one. It's time to persevere and to be strong. There has to be or else I'll just be bitter. It's funny, how some of my peers are reacting when I show them the sad, melodramatic side of me. It is what it is, and it's time to push through it. Life has a lot more to offer than chips and cherries.