I am now alive for 26 years and a few days. I'm impress. I've never had braces, nor have my wisdom teeth been taken away. I still have em'. The fact that I've been on this earth for that long is impressive. I'm not 80. I wish I am. Growing up is fun. Kids these days... they want to grow up so fast. I'd say take your time and enjoy being a kid. As this world evolves everyone is becoming more impatient daily. Things are simpler and people are becoming spoiled. Albert Einstein says "everything should be made as simple as possible, but no simpler. To live longer is to be happier? Right? It's suppose to be. It's funny how people are more sad, when we hear or see a person pass away at an early age compared to someone with age. Is it because the future is missed? Then why do people get bummed out when they're past their mid 20's and doesn't want to get old? It's probably because they're missing something, or they missed something. There's always something that we miss. There's always something that we wish we had or we did. Why can't we just live our lives with no regrets and free. The more I see myself and this world, the more I feel like I don't belong where I'm at. I love my family and my friends the most, but what's in it for me? I'm an anomaly. I don't see these worldly things to be that important. I don't see having a magnificent career to be an important. It doesn't make sense to me to be driving a fifty thousand dollar car that eats a lot of gas. Perhaps self image matters, but I don't think Jesus gave a crap about how he looked like. He is the epitome of a human being there is. I believe
Trigonometry, I'm tutoring my brother. I feel like I have forgotten a lot of it. That's not good. I'm getting old. My brain cells aren't functioning anymore. I used to be good at math. Until I found out that there's limits and I have to derive things. I love learning. I don't like getting confuse. The little brother is almost a senior in high school and I'm gone. I cannot wait. I just want to keep building on life. Not waste time by doing irrelevant things, unless it's fun. The father of mine didn't really remember my birthday. It hurts. I actually just cried a lot when midnight came last week. There's just a lot of pain inside. It's okay. It wasn't fun, but it'll take me to the next level. At least my sister bought me a cake, my mother bought food, and my brother broke his 3 mile run by a few seconds. Overall, it was a good day for the family. I wasn't home most of the day of the anniversary of my birth. It seems to me that they don't really need my presence, they just need my salary. It sounds really bad, but that's been the story of my life. Well if that's their love language then I'm willing to show them love through "gifts".
Life's been exciting. A lot has happened. I'm playing it safe right now. I'll probably take a leap of fate later on. A few things have changed. Only way to go is to move forward and progress. I can take a moment and rest, but everything still moves even if I'm not moving. There's no pressure on my part. I try to make things right and not add into what makes people's lives a lot more complicated. Its already made simple. God made everything so that we live a great life. There shouldn't be any issues or anything. I just want to build life. I'm a man from this world. I want to work and give back to what the world has given me. Life is amazing! Perhaps there will be times when I'm down and out, but there's still plenty of small things that brings joy in my life like bubbles, flowers, fresh air, and the funny looking mold structures under a microscope. I want to eat on a public place, walk in a crowded street and get to know someone. Because I want to build a life. I'm not wasting my time on who doesn't share that interest. Let's go build lives mine, yours, and everyone else. :)
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