- Helen Keller
I planned on writing a few days ago about something that kind of got me going. The topic, I forgot. It was something that I was really thrilled about putting up here. The days have been short. Feels like I don't have time to do anything. Or perhaps the effects of the earthquake a week ago in Chile shook this earth a little bit. My memory hasn't been the sharpest. There's just a lot going on inside my head. I forget most of them sometime.
I'm driving on the freeway the other day heading to Azusa. As I was trying to get from one freeway to another. I plan ahead. I watch carefully for cars behind me. I observe who's coming quick and who's taking their time. I make sure that the lane's clear before I switch. I can see the cars around me, but do I know what's happening on the freeway? Sure. A driver who sees things, but isn't really thinking ahead of how to get from point A to point B would end up in a big tragedy or they'll miss their exit or their junction. The Global Positioning System also knowns as GPS usually takes a few seconds to think and to decipher where exactly you're at and how far you have to turn to. What it doesn't tell you is how fast the other drivers are. Or where's this blue car going? Or what's the girl's driving record in the green car, or is that mattress on the cab look a little loose to you?
It's kind of random, but yea. ..
It's almost that time of the year. Time to look back and just be drawn to my own life. Oh joy. I'm happy. I'm sad. I'm bittersweet. It's good. I love life. I love everything about it. I learned from the past. I'm loving what's in front of me. I'm excited for the future. I actually have my manhood plan written down. It's just a 5 year plan for myself. There's God's plan, and here's my plan. I'm not going against what God's telling me to do because I am glorifying him in my plans and making myself a better servant and son. God already knew my vision.
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." - Jeremiah 1:5
God's plan for life began before the world was made. Just read Genesis.
So as the day comes closer. I am just bathing in prayer and filling myself up with the words coming from my instruction manual, the bible.
Funny: How electronic gadgets and things comes with an instruction manual from the box or a bottle of lotion has instructions in the back of how to apply it. Well as human beings we have the bible as our manual. As God our creator, he wrote us a manual of how to use our lives to be able to live to the fullest and be efficient beings.
I like to stop and think for an hour or so by the beach the evening before midnight about the years I lived. I'm at a point where I'm playing it a little bit on the safe side at the moment because of responsibilities with my family and at home. I don't even think that it matters to them, but I believe it does. It seems like it does according to this world, but why give them worldly things rather than just be an example of love and truth. I'm trying. It gets me sometimes. It definitely brings tears to my eyes, but I gotta wipe those tears because I need to face things. I can't just sit and cry about it. There's decisions to be made, plans to be executed and actions to be taken. I still got sometime, but I'm not going to just sit here and wait. Well, I don't know. I can only do so much. I want to do more. I can't spread myself to thin. If I could just be amazing?
I'm not created to be a genius. Every decision is connected to a door that opens and then once that door opens I'm once again faced with a decisions to make. I don't really like the phrase "I don't know." I like to have answers. I like to be able to be there for someone or for something. I draw it out. And everything is still blurry. Prayer definitely helps, but I need to make a plan. I need to set goals and have some sort of deadlines.
I'm not created to be perfect. Accidents happen. Unfortunate events come along. I'd rather focus on the good side of things. And if I can make it work where I'm constantly thinking about Him, and also being able to take on my role as a man in this world then I'm set. Easier said than done. The plan needs to be realistic. The plan needs to be timely. I'm ready to pitch this ad and turn in my portfolio and see if I get the part or not.
I'm not created to be super. I'm only human. I walk like one. I eat like one. And I love like one. Often times I'd give up something for others. Why? I don't know. I'm an anomaly according to some people. I won't say that I'm doing what I'm only capable of doing right now because I don't know my full potential really. Who does? Ghandi once said " you must be the change you want to see this world." Enough said. If only this world would be unselfish and obedient to God? I want change. I seek change. I like being random and spontaneously doing things. I maybe radical and crazy, but I want to offer my life to you.
I'm getting a year older in less than 24 hours. Come on! I'm ready!
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