God has His way of making me think daily. I see things, I hear things, I feel things. Life is great, but I need Jesus. There's an eternity and there's more to life than driving a beamer, having a girl friend, and making bank. I don't really want to try hard to please God. I am in love and I just want to love Him with all my life. Following Jesus doesn't mean that I'll get this worldly pleasures and enjoy them. I want and will follow Jesus even if He takes it all away from me. I want to deny my family, my friends, my church, and myself. I want to just pick up my cross and follow Him. I want to do something crazy. I want to follow Him. Not because by following Him I get these perks and comfort. I want to follow Him because He's worth it to me. It's worth doing something scary and crazy.
I ask God everyday, "God help me love You more". I leave my house to work, to run errands, to hang out, to live life. I want to put Him in front of me. God as the first one that hits me as I leave my house. God as the first one I think about when I wake up and before I go to bed. God is the treasure greater than anything. I just want him to help me to love Him more. It sounds weird, but I don't want it only when I go to church or hang out with church folks. Often time I love food more than God. Often times I love sleep more than God. Often times I love the great outdoors more than Him. I want to be stronger and be able to stand strong with my faith in Him. Everyday He works in me. Everyday I question why do these people around me do things to glorify God, but it seems like they're glorifying themselves. I feel like I'm judging, and I have no right too. I see good hearts with good intentions. I can't be a judge. They're doing their part and I'm doing mine.
I was reading Philippians 3. It says that suffering characterizes a Christian. I want to know Christ and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of sharing His sufferings and becoming like Him through his death. The first part of Philippians 3 is having that want to know him. The second part is about His power, the power of the resurrection. Then it goes, and the fellowship of his sufferings and/or becoming like him through his death. Jesus explained in 2nd Timothy 3:12 that anyone who follows Jesus will be persecuted. Philippians 1:29 says it's granted for us not only to believe in Him, but to also suffer for His sake. I just want to remember that it's all worth it. It's so worth it. All the sufferings in this earth is okay. I will be rewarded a hundred fold.
The Gospel needs to be taught differently. And stop saying that we can add Jesus to our lives. What the Gospel teaches is that we loose our life and then we find it. Sacrifice everything and Jesus says that he offers us something better. And if we try and hold on to that old life, we try to save it, we lose it. What kind of profit do I get to gain the whole world and forfeit my soul. I just question the intentions of those who try and put Jesus in people's lives. Or if they walk with Jesus for an hour and walk with the world for half an hour.
Everyone has a story of how they met Jesus. Everyone goes through that "I'm so on fire for Christ". Crisis comes, and "Oh I'm still so on fire for Christ". Luck goes their way, and "Yea... I'm still on fire for Christ". Why does the fire fluctuate? It makes me realize that I don't want to have that desire to have that "life" that this world paints. I want to suffer. I want to be challenge and be stressed. I feel alive dealing with problems and issues. I feel alive solving things and making things happen. I'm happy to see that I'll be hanging out with awesome people in heaven when the time comes. I'm happy to hear the good news that people are saying. I'm happy to feel loved by God and that he'll bless me enough to fulfill his will.
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