Getting Things Done...

It's past 230am. I have to be up in like 4 hours. I'm trying to really make this outline presentable for this weekend's Station retreat. Did I procrastinate? I'm not really sure. I knew it was coming. I just didn't get the deadline until a day ago. Also had to write my lesson for tomorrow night for the Station. I'm teaching twice this week. Also working in the office trying to get the lab work started while working on reports and paper works. It's supposed to be fun, but not when there's a block in my brain in the past hour or so.

I couldn't think. I'm reading all these things, but it's not getting transcribed to a lesson of my own. It's annoying. I was happy, and now I'm just frustrated I can't get this one down. I wrote my first lesson and that was a breeze. The topic was "Caring for the Least", and I nailed that down like ice cream on a waffle cone. And now I'm working on Jesus's Prayer life and for some reason it's not composing well. I get it. I know it. I just want it to be very well written and done to a point where these college kids will be affected by it. Go big or go home?! It's Jesus's prayer... I want this sermon to be darn awesome. Unlike tonight's sermon, this weekend's somehow is more difficult for me to put in an outline. I prayed about it and it's just not working. I want this outline to be attached to their walls. I want this to be mind blowing. I'm giving it Saturday evening, which is like the climax of this weekends retreat.

I've cried out for help because of the music that's playing in my ears. It's late. I'm tired. I'm alone. I want my work to be the best for God. I have confidence that it'll be done. I just don't want to rush it and just turn it in. Cups after cups of tea with Colbie playing in the back ground it's still not working- my brain. It's irritating when I can't get it done. Ahhhhh...

I have a love for these stuff, but I'm hating it right now. As much as I don't use the word hate, I'm using it tonight. I need a breather. I'll continue this when I wake up. Oh Wednesday... This is brutal. I still need to go in to work and finish a duplex report and anticipate big-huge house in Long Beach. Send out flyers for this dumb golf tournament in two weeks. I have to grow and break down Memnoniella, and get it to be pretty under a microscope and take a photo and put it in the portfolio. Trying to finish all the Deuteromycotina. And I'm only on the Memnoniella. There's like 18 more. My head's going to explode. Oh did I mention that I have to go find some Cladosporium by my boss's house. It'd be silly, but okay. I need a sample, and I ran out of samples and I didn't want buy one. Yes, we can buy mold. Weird. So I'm getting one via the backyard. Wonderful. Also, I have to start working on the invoice sheets for these mold reports and allergen tests. I need to bring a cheat sheet with me... All these names are driving me nuts. It'll be fun. After all the work in the office, I'm putting in a nap sometime this afternoon. Then taking my ninja's to the beach. Then a prayer stroll. Then the Station. That's how it's looking like in one day. Awesome!

Love it! I have to stay strong this next two months. It's make it or break it season in terms of work. I'll continue preaching the Good News. That's always going to make it. The other stuff will follow. I hope. If it doesn't then try and go on a different approach and alternative. There's always a plan b.