"For Christ's love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again."C'mon people! Jesus died for us, so that we can not go to hell. Let's live for Jesus. Why can't a regular Sunday service be like Easter service all the time. There were a lot of people at church today. People were singing and was actually friendly. There's so many smiling faces this morning. I forget the world sometimes when I see people smiling. It's so good. It's so peaceful. It's like music to my ears, it's just peaceful.
Church was terrific. I went home after lunch to spend some time w/ the fam-bam knowing that they're just going to be away. O well. Sometimes it gets me inside knowing the fact that my fambam don't know what it means to live a life worth living for. I can't force feed them, but I'm really trying and praying hard that maybe they'll see the light. I've got bibles and notes running around everywhere the house to a point where my Mamma would yell at me to go clean up my stuff. That just sounds like loud rap music to me. They all came home and it was nice to hear my brother teasing my sister about giving her a hug. Weird. Then came the great earthquake after I drooled over the couch watching the Lakers lose to the Spurs. It was 7.2 magnitude earthquake. It wasn't as bad as the one that I experienced in Hawaii once when the tv fell from it's stand. Wonderful. It was a pretty intense earthquake. My feet were feeling the floors of our second floor apartment and I was just feeling the foundation if it was about to give in. I was waiting for a disaster to happen. It would've been a sad story, but fortunately I still have a roof on my head. That was that.
I wasn't sure of what I'm doing for the rest of my Sunday. I had dindin w/ my Mamma. It was fun. I like sharing a meal with anybody. Even if it's my mother. It's always awkward and strange, but it works. I'm making it work. I'm trying. Home cooked meal and a lecture from my mother on giving my stuff away. Great. I skipped some evening churching and just chilled at home.
Everything's mellow. Until I was dragged to go have frozen yogurt. Sometimes I just don't understand the logic of some of my friends. Perhaps there is none. There is no point of going against the flow. Sometimes I just have to suck it up and ride that wave. He really pushed my buttons tonight. There was a lot of backtracking and useless, pointless reasoning. Empty promises and the lack of common sense. My patience was definitely challenged. So as I calmed down the party arrived and I cooled off. I stepped outside for a bit and next thing I see the company is leaving and is pissed. At this point, nothing seems to be going well with this little adventure to go get frozen yogurt. The highlight of it was probably me stepping outside jumping around the common area conversing on the phone and having happy thoughts. The plan was a failure. Everything was gravy until my buddy played his sappy drama music. That made the company leave and now he's stuck with me.
I can't help it anymore but to just lay it down the table. Sometimes people need to know what they're doing wrong. I care for these people enough that once I get to a certain point I have to sit you down and talk to you man vs. man. Fight or flight is the usual reaction by anyone who gets irritated, frustrated, annoyed, mad, sad, or whatever negative emotion is happening inside. After reading books after books on dealing with this society. I found out that fight or flight isn't the best solution to solve interpersonal issues. Getting in a dialog in a calm and pleasant manner is the best way. Of course sometimes the temper gets on a higher scale, but everything has to be controlled or else everything will just be counter productive. After a long and disastrous evening I came to a point where I was being a good friend. It felt really frustrating, but it's good. I'm here for whoever needs an ear to listen. I'm her to be accountable for. Back to some good music with some old Gospel music. I just feel compelled to just feel good. Jesus is alive baby!!! Amen!
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