Mammoth

I shouldn't be up right now. I really need sleep. I slept okay last night, but woke up from a nightmare this morning. I just got done with the Monday after an amazing time in Mammoth last weekend. I'm currently taking a break from writing my outline for the Station this Wednesday. I'm teaching about "Caring for the Least". It has to be done tonight because I have to turn it in for them to print tomorrow because I have to write another sermon tomorrow for the Station retreat this weekend. That's going to be on "Jesus's Prayer Life". That needs to be turned into them by Wednesday for the handouts. I'm full of joy of just learning and studying the bible. I'm lovin' it.

Mammoth was beautiful. The mountains were astounding. Often times I wonder how the heck these people can't believe in God by not just looking at the mountains. There's just something wonderful about God's creation. I'm so thankful for every single second I had this weekend with so many wonderful people. It was just fun. I didn't worry much. There were no stress or anything. It was simple and majestic. Every time I feel like I was going to lose it. I just prayed and meditated. Skiing was blissful and fun! All I can say is that I was on a cloud last weekend. The rest of how I feel goes to my private journal. I feel good for now. Even with the lack of sleep and time. I'm going to say that I'm driven to finish whatever task that's in front of me right now, ie. 5 trips, 4 states, 3 weekends, 2 sermons, 1 life. The weekend was more liberating rather than relaxing. I got to cook the whole weekend. I got to serve my fellows. I got to stop and not think of home or work. I'm just thankful and happy for now with all the crazy things going on around me. Even with all my worries and stress, I tried to make last weekend fun, not only for me but also for some. I shouldn't be down anymore. God is going to work His ways.

There was a moment at church last night where I just wanted to cry. It's not because I'm sad and that I can't do anything about anything. God's doing a lot right now and I'm here trying to get it. I'm just a lil confused unto what to do with what's in front of me. "Great power, comes great responsibility"-Uncle Ben from Spider Man. I really don't have any powers, but I have the Holy Spirit. Oh man, I just need to man up, but I don't want to be downed. This is really an annoying feeling. I'm just going to continue what I'm doing and maybe my phone rings in the middle of the night and Jesus is calling me. Ah... I wish I can type more... Time to go back writing this lesson.