23rd

Dearly Beloved,

I'm just going to say that I miss you. I miss you even though I don't know if you exist or not. I want to start out by saying that there will be time in the future that we will be apart for a day or more because of our busy lives. I love you. I don't ever want to be separated from you, but it's good to have out own lives too. I have my business and you have yours. We come home to each other wanting to tell how our days went. We wake up every morning wishing the best day for each other.

Last night's teaching at the college group was a grand success. I'm glad that's accomplished. I was a little stressed and hyped about it. Thank God, literally for being with me the whole time. I want to be working more for God. To have Him as the root of everything that I do. Whether it's research, cleaning, cooking, courting my love, etc. The topic of angels & demons has been handed to the college students of LMU. And the love of Jesus Christ is with them. Yes! Soooo Goood!

Honesty shouldn't be a problem, but often times I'm too honest. I hope you understand me. Honey bunny!! I say the dumbest things sometimes. I want to just duct tape my mouth sometimes. I say stupid things that could hurt people, or just plain and simple hurt me. I really don't want to see people in a place of discomfort and unhappiness. It's okay to be sad. I'm sad a lot. I hope not as much when you come into my life. You are my sunshine! The one that's brighter than the sun! I want to be honest to you as much as possible. I want to open up to you and bring up stuff that bothers me. I hope you do the same with me. Communication is key for this relationship to work. I don't want to be passive at all, not just with you, but with everybody else. God knows my heart. Literally. You probably know it by now.

Before I end this entry. I would like to tell you that I will be as honest as possible with you. And we're going to be arguing and maybe even fighting, but the love that I have for you is stronger than the waves of the pacific. God wins. We both live to love Him. With that comes our love for each other.

Love, John