9th

To my wife,

Hello! I have my health check up today. I am nervous. My heart hasn't been acting well lately. God's been challenging me a lot lately. I pray that whatever challenges that God puts in front of us, we can peacefully go through it together. I was literally in tears last night just in so much pain emotionally and physically. I know that I can cry in front of you. I just want to say "hi" and I love you.

1 Peter 1:22 Having purified your souls by your obedience to the truth for a sincere brotherly/sisterly love, love one another earnestly from a pure heart,

My heart is broken daily with my own struggles, perhaps of my selfish desires. Let God's will be done. Not mine. I only want people to be happy. And often times my happiness depends on what makes others happy and comfortable. I want a pure heart that serves God and others. Who am I to desire things for my own good. As much as I want to take care of myself, I want to take care of you, my love. I care too much that it hurts sometimes. The world isn't perfect, we're not perfect and I know that we're going to have struggles and often times things won't go our way. I believe that if we focus on God, and continue loving one another we will be filled with joy in this world that demands a comfortable life to be happy. I love you, and I will do consistently love you even in the good and bad days.

Love, John