Sixteenth

Babe,

I can't wait to come home to you and just tell you how my day went and just talk. I was out of sync today. I just keep forgetting things. Even with my to-do list, I'm just not all there today. Yesterday's problems still bother me a little bit. I've given it all to God. And as much as I don't want to bring Him up, God's my only hope. I am losing it. I would be doing ungodly things right now. Just having that thought makes me grinch. I am sinning for feeling this way. It's annoying. I don't want to feel like this. I'm just lonely. Man, I love God, so much that I am willing to lose it all. If you, my love, have to walk away from me... I'm not sure what I'd do. I know that I shouldn't be attaching myself to this world, I'm here to fellowship with other Christians and share God's love and truth to those who aren't save. I am in this conundrum. I want those men and women who knows God to grow closer to Him, not be just on the surface. I crave for more. I just want to see people liberated of this world and what it's been telling us. I am on my knees almost everyday just crying out to God. Take away my desires of this world.

We're a team. You and me. Team Ram! Yeeee! You are always on my prayers. We can be on our knees together praying to our God. That would be a dream come true for me. I'm excited for what's ahead. I'm blocking my negative emotions right now with constant prayer, exercise, and talking to my dog Iggy. I'm also keeping myself busy making the moneys to start saving up for your shopping money. Hopefully, you're not too crazy over material stuff. We'll live comfortable with some style and spank. I'll leave it at that.

Love, John