Twenty Fifth

Hi <3

You probably know by now how much I love God. The way of life should be done in love. I am trying to the max to keep that in mind (1st Corinthians 16:14). I miss you. I know. Weird. It's Sunday and I went to a family lunch thing where I had to really be in prayer and be patient with family. I'm fine w/ my mom, sister, and brother. However, my extended family is a little out of control. My cousins are brats, and the elders are foreign. I'm foreign, I'm also diverse. They're one sided folks who only sticks with what they know and what the world gives to them. I can't really speak up because of plenty of reasons. I don't want to disrespect them. I'm just going to love who they are. I literally was in prayer the whole time. It was great. My patience was being tested. I survived. It wasn't a perfect lunch, but I'm glad that I went. My grama keeps tearing up every time she sees me. :)

I know that was a long rant. I hope that by the time that you read this, you've met my family. I hope you understand why I say these things. I also will guess that you love my family. A little weird, but yea. We'll see. I want to to be a son to your mom and dad. I want to be a brother to your siblings if you have any. I'm confident that your family will appreciate me for who I am. They will probably love me more than you. I'm just joking. I will adapt easily to your family. Whether you like it or not. Family is important to me. And I'm reconstructing my own right now. I don't know if it'll ever be that perfect picture of a family, but it is what it is.

I'm going to church tonight. I ate too much food. It's always a good and bad feeling. That feeling of all that food in me makes me glad, but I know I have to work it all out later. It's okay. I've never been so motivated to work out. Although, I have many injuries and I'm also getting older. However, my mind is still willing to go beyond what my body can't. I know this because I can push myself to a point of lactic acid building up to my entire body. It's okay. I'm moderately happy with my work outs. I'm not too obsess about it. I'm just keeping a healthy living. The real joy is in praising and worshiping our God. Oh man... I can't wait to do that tonight!

I love you. I want to do things along side with you. I want to go on an adventure with you. Leggo!

<3, John